dar smetimes makes me wonder abt lots of things.

things tat he do. things tat he say. things tat is on his mind. things tat i tink its so difficult to pen in here though i wan to let it out. things tat r personal tat i cant tell to ppl whom i dun noe well.

i so much yearn for a perfect relationship. i hope so much our relationship can b like before we were married. i wish so much tat we wld b so happie always n lovin forever.

i wonder wat changed things. is it bcoz of e marriage? is it bcoz we r c-in each other everyday? is it bcoz of all e things tat married couples face - money issues, hsewrk issues, relatives issues? is it bcoz of all e commitments? i reallie dun noe.

there r so many questions on my mind always. but no answers.

i reallie wish i haf a crystal ball. or sme love guru whom noe everythin n is nv wrong to tell me wat to do.

was watchin a dumb show on ch 8 on sat nite. a part of it smehw feels close to e heart coz a teeny part of e show reflects wat i face. as a 3rd party pt of view, i can c things clearly but bein a part of it, i dun tink i wld haf seen wat a 3rd party cld haf seen. 'pang guan zhi qing, dang ju zhe mi'. hw true is e proverb.

dis cute keychain is given by dar. he says i always frown.

even dis keychain spark off lots of thots in me. wat is it? cant tell u. too personal. i reallie feel at lost. like in e middle of sahara desert, midway up mt everest n e centre of e ocean pacific ocean.

i reallie feel v, xtremely, ultra mega, super duper happie abt e keychain. but...